Sow for yourselves righteousness; reap in mercy; break up your fallow ground, for it is time to seek the LORD, till HE comes and rains righteousness on you.Hosea 10:12
I’ll be honest, we’ve been away from organized church for five years. We listen to podcasts. We do devotionals together. But we just don’t get up on Sunday morning and go to church.
Right now, no one does.
But we’ve started to listen to some local church services as they are live streaming.
I admit I miss church. I really felt that this morning as we listened and Daniel sang along with the worship music.
It will be hard, as we transition to full time RV life and travel this summer, to find a church. But I really want to attend church again. Even if it’s a different church every couple of weeks.
I honestly never thought I would crave corporate worship. But I do.
I realized over the weekend that this flare of reflux and heartburn is related to some anxiety and stress I’ve been experiencing the past few months. So lately I’ve been meditating on peace, God’s PEACE, the kind of peace that only comes from Him. Daily life on earth doesn’t offer much in the way of peace.
But He does.
And the peace of God which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.Philippians 4:7 NIV
Tuesday morning Daniel and I met with our financial advisor, Debbie Murphy. We want to put our retirement money in one place and with someone who has a more vested interest in us and our goals instead of a huge company’s goals.
Daniel met Mrs. Murphy when she worked for a huge financial company that administered retirement accounts for the company we work for. Five years ago she left and began to work for herself, following her passion and gift by helping those of us without any financial know how reach our dreams.
After meeting with her today, I’m confident God led us to her. I have complete peace that she will get our retirement account where it needs to be to fund our dreams.
Do yourself a favor and give her a call. Click here to go to her website. You won’t regret it.
Here’s where I’m at today. Honestly, I’m struggling with faith. I’m struggling, today, to believe the vision I have for our future will happen and that it’s not just a daydream. I know this is where faith comes in, where I have to choose to believe, and to keep working toward the vision. Y’all, some days that’s HARD to do. Some days the enemy creeps in with those old sound tracks in my head telling me this will never work, I’m not good enough, nothing I try works out.
Many of you know what I’m talking about. I think we all have those negative sound tracks at one time or another.
I know they’re lies. I KNOW it. But some days, y’all, some days, the fight is hard and exhausting.
So here’s where I am. I surrender to the knowledge of who I am in Christ. Even though I don’t feel it today. Even though, at this moment, it’s a purely intellectual exercise. What I feel doesn’t matter, doesn’t change the truth.
Are you struggling right now? How can I pray for you this week?
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.Matthew 6:33
I’ve been trying so hard to live by this scripture, especially as we prepare for full time RV life in a year and a half. But I have struggled and failed over the past couple of weeks. Instead of leaning on God to provide, I have been frantically trying to figure out how we’re going to afford the RV we want. Then struggling over trying to decide what RV we want. I have to get back to trusting Him. He already has this figured out. I just need to keep putting one foot in front of the other as I follow Him.